My name is Hillary. I dance, I sing, I write, I love and most of all I do yoga. l live to be free. I am experiencing every inch of my journey with gratitude. I am in training to be a yoga instructor which is my greatest happiness. I am also on my way to getting a masters in Anthropology. <3 <3
I think the scariest thing about this illness is that I might have screwed up my body so much I won’t be able to have kids and even though I didn’t know what I was doing to myself I still did it and I’ll have to live with the consequences for the rest of my life.
To me this is HPV. It has come into my life and scared me and doctors play it down like its so common and ill be fine but… I just found out that it can be really dangerous in vaginal births. The soldier says if I’m with him then ill get a C section when I have babies which is so devastating to me. Making love can lead to this. I’ve damaged myself by being open and free and even if you wear condoms you can get it (which i did) When I got raped I cried because I didn’t want any other girl to get this more than the actual event (mostly because I can’t remember 90% of it) just be aware okay.
I just can’t though.
It’s been 2 weeks
And my mind is already unraveling
She takes me to a place I never want to be
And in that I know there is a lesson
I don’t know what I’m supposed to be learning
But for now it really sucks.
I want to be better at talking to her
Being around her
But she is so mean sometimes
Finally admitted he is in love with me and that he feels guilty over the way he treated me when we dated. So yeah. Uhm….